Melungeons

I stumbled upon this yesterday and it made me lol for real,
so when I thought random I thought this. 

I have a bad feeling about the nature of my posts. They are all going to be a collection of random things, because I'll be damned if I can ever focus on anything for long enough to make a full post out of it. I swear the things I get fixated on are only those things that I do not want to share with the world, which isn't a lot, because secrets are sort of silly and I have a tendency to blurt things out. Especially when I've spent the last ten minutes thinking "Okay don't tell them this, don't tell them this, don't tell them this! You're not going to! It's cool! They don't have to know" and then I see them and I'm like "THIS!" immediately. Yeah hope that made sense.




Anyway! I have decided that I have reached an entirely new level of neurosis. I am officially neurotic about being neurotic. The specific thing that made me realize this was wondering if someone had a problem with me that they weren't sharing. I am completely aware of my neurotic nature*, so I was just like... no they probably don't, you're just being crazy. After this fear had been rolling around in my brain for a while (because I don't stop thinking neurotic things just because I tell myself I'm being neurotic), I started to wonder if maybe there really was something to be worried about but I would never actually catch on to that because I am so convinced that I am just being neurotic. I realized this could continue on forever (Ah they don't like me! No you're just being neurotic! What if they really don't like me and my fear of being neurotic is making me miss that? No, you're just being neurotic about being neurotic. Okay, but what if I'm not and now because my brain is telling me that they are socially cue-ing me to leave them alone but I'm writing it off as neurosis so I'm missing it and they really don't like me! Yeah, but you're probably just being neurotic! Ad nauseam.) and that's just a terrifying thought.

Couldn't find a picture where she looked crazier

*When I say I'm completely aware of my neurotic nature, I mean I really am. I have been told by a lot of people that I am the most neurotic person they know. When Josh started watching Community, I said I was almost as neurotic as Annie (even though I fully believed I was more neurotic but that seemed ridiculous). He laughed in my face and clarified that I am, in fact, at least as, if not more, neurotic than the basic personification of neurosis on television.




I guess the other thing I wanted to talk about was my dream. I had a couple of strange dreams last night. One involved Sam Neill, Mary McDonnell, and Australia. I can figure out where Mary McDonnell came from (watching way too much Battlestar Galactica lately) and since I gorged on communitychannel videos yesterday it makes sense that I would have Australia on my mind, but where did Sam Neill came from? I think I had a conversation with someone recently about Merlin and it came to light that they were talking about the crazy sauce miniseries with Sam Neill from the nineties, and I was talking about the unacceptable BBC show, so that sort of makes sense? But that must have been almost a week ago. I don't know.

BUT what I really wanted to tell you about was the crazy spiders in my other dream! So these spiders are apparently like zombies, in the sense that they freak me out so much that I completely lose any lucid dreaming ability that I have and freak the hell out. They had really long front legs and the heads of eagles and made sounds like owls. It was weird. They were everywhere in this random imaginary neighborhood too. I hopped off a bike I was riding (which makes it obviously a dream because I have forgotten how to ride a bike. Shut up.) and ended up backed against a house trying to avoid a monster spider and some guy comes out of the house and is like "WTF mate?" (just kidding I wasn't in Australia in this one, but still) and I'm like "AAAAAAAAARGH RUNNING FROM THE SPIDER!" and he's like "Why are you freaking out? You have three on your shirt." and I feel the weight on my shirt, feel like I'm going to shit my pants, and wake up with my heart racing. It was pretty outrageous. In fact, I'm going to try and draw these spiders so you understand how silly this really is.

No, I don't know how this would move in real life. And yes, I am a professional artist. Shut up.

Okay so that was fun. I want to leave you with this video that always makes me laugh. In fact, it makes me laugh every time I hear the word krump, which is a lot. So yeah.






Oh! And I have another question for you all: if you could go back in time and invent anything what would it be? And no time travel problems, no nothing, you get the credit neat and tidy and it's not like you invent it super early or anything, I mean you just beat the person who actually invented it barely. I don't know why but I feel like this could be a very revealing question.

San Dimas High School Football... wait no... TESLA RULES!

(And for those of you that made it this far: I couldn't think of a title so I went to Urban Dictionary and hit the random button.)