Am I here, or am I dreaming?

They apparently don't make red onion costumes. This is totally relevant.

Tonight I watched Inception with Cameron. I hadn't seen it before and I enjoyed it. I've got thoughts on it, but I think the internet has had plenty of thoughts on Inception, so I thought I'd talk about what it brought to my mind: lucid dreaming.
For a long time all of the dreaming was lucid dreaming. I was doing it before I knew what lucid dreaming was. I just knew I was dreaming and so I could control what was going on. Lately it's been happening less and less. I guess I sort of took it for granted, because it's just the way I dreamed.

There were two things I couldn't really control: flying and zombies. I mean, I could fly, at will, but never with ease or anything. It required work. I've always had to get a good jump, get horizontal, and do the breast stroke. That sounds sort of dirty, but I think you probably know what I'm talking about. It's not exhausting to do, it just seems like I make it more difficult than it has to be.

And zombies. Oh god. I had not had an actual nightmare in years and years, because I knew I was dreaming every time I had a sort of scary dream. If I got tired of it I could make it change (one memorable time involved making the "bad guy" suddenly be in a giant red onion costume. Dressing up as a vegetable makes it impossible to be terrifying), but not zombies. I have only had one real zombie apocalypse nightmare and I knew I was dreaming, but my fear of zombies kept me so freaked out that I couldn't get out of it. I was pretty shaken up when I woke up (after being forced to choose between hopping off a roof to hungry wolves or staying to be devoured by zombies, which only got into the building because I was paralyzed with fear and couldn't barricade a door), but luckily I haven't had one since then. And I hope it goes without saying that I am not making this up and am actually that ridiculous.

I guess right now I'm just sort of sad that I can't lucid dream, because the way they messed with in-dream worlds in Inception (shut up I don't care about legit terms, I don't know if there is one, shut up) seemed like it would be sort of fun to apply. I miss being able to control my own little world every night.

I've also had this song stuck in my head all night:







I'm not a big fan of they lyrics included videos, but the only that I wanted disabled embedding because the universe is just against me sometimes.